This is the third post in a series of reflections on our adventures with Lotus Wei’s 6 month FloweRevolution movement! This program focuses on the powers of a brand new flower elixir each month, and since we’re doing it together, we wanted to share our thoughts as we finish up each batch. Click HERE to look back at last month’s post, where we focused on the Peony flower elixir.
JULY’S FLOWER ELIXIR:
BLACK BAT COMPASSION, FEARLESSNESS, PROTECTIVE STRENGTH.
IMAGE COURTESY OF LOTUS WEI
What a month. July was chaotic and intense to say the least. My work and personal life were battling for time and work definitely won. With 2 weeks of travel on my plate, I found little to no time for myself (or even my family). I stayed committed to taking the black bat elixir but had little time for introspection and meditation. Amidst all of the craziness, I did find myself exerting a fierce amount of protection over myself. I was over extending myself but I wasn’t doing so quietly. Exhausted and drained at the end of my travels, I managed to squeeze in a healing session with an incredibly powerful shaman. I had numerous recommendations for her work within my close circle. So when I found myself in New York, I squeezed in a last minute session on my way to airport. Juliana Sabinson, you are the real deal and have a powerful gift. Besides the fact that we worked on compassion during the session (hello Black Bat), the most intuitive and powerful thing she told me was that I need to learn to trust and release. Because I’m also juggling, going and trying to push through, I’m in constant hunt and survive mode. I need to learn to trust that the universe has my back and I need to let myself be taken care of by my husband. If I don’t do these things, the universe will force me into this situation through sickness where I will learn what’s it’s like to really be taken care of. Few things have resonated with me as powerfully as that simple, yet complex advice. While July was an incredibly tough month, the Black Bat showed me that I need to choose myself and for that, I am grateful.
As I mentioned in last month’s post, I wasn’t feeling much of the love and gratitude that a lot of the other women in the program were feeling from the peony elixir. I ended the month feeling more like I’d been run over by a train than anything else. I was exhausted and feeling disappointed. It wasn’t until Week 3 of taking the Black Bat elixir daily when I realized my energy was lighter, I was less irritable and life just seemed more manageable. And when I took the time to think about where, why or how this could be, I realized I had made a major shift, while barely even realizing it. I found myself committed to 2-3 Pilates classes a week, a daily meditation practice and writing in a journal on the nights I couldn’t sleep. To put this in perspective, I had barely been to Pilates 2 times in the last year, have honestly never had a regular meditation practice and haven’t journaled in at least 5+ years. So yea. Big deal. These are things I had been “meaning” to commit to (for an embarrassingly long time now) because even doing them here or there left me feeling more grounded, peaceful, and just plain happier. You’d think those feelings alone would be reason enough to stick with these good habits, but I have always found a way to fill up any extra time with work or some other nonsense, rather than myself. But this month, missing a workout or meditation just wasn’t an option. And I can’t help but think that the Black Bat elixir had something to do with helping me to be strong and compassionate for the one person I usually forget about… ME! See ya next month!